#suicide

I lay here,
Pouring crimson regret.
I'm crying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.
Day after day,
More lies about a world,
That never was, and never will be.
You don't know how you betrayed me.
Without my mask, where will I hide? 
I can't find myself,
Lost in the lie.
I know the truth now,
I know who you are.
I don't love you anymore.
It never was and never will be,
You're not real and you can't save me.
So goodbye, cruel world!
I greet my suicide, my Savior.


Scripture says this:

What shall we say then? Shall we continue still in sin, so that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live yet therein? Know ye not, that all we which have been baptized into Jesus Christ, have been baptized into his death? We are buried then with him by baptism into his death, that like as Christ was raised up from the dead to the glory of the Father, so we also should walk in newness of life. For if we be planted with him to the similitude of his death, even so shall we be to the similitude of his resurrection. Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with him, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth we should not serve sin, for he that is dead, is freed from sin. Wherefore, if we be dead with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with him. Knowing that Christ being raised from the dead, dieth no more: death hate no more dominion over him. For in that he died, he died once to sin: but in that he liveth, he liveth to God. Likewise think ye also, that ye are dead to sin, but are alive to God in Jesus Christ our Lord. Let not sin reign therefore in your mortal body, that ye should obey it in the lusts thereof: Neither give ye your members, as weapons of unrighteousness unto sin: but give yourselves unto God, as they that are alive from the dead, and give your members as weapons of righteousness unto God. For Sin shall not have dominion over you: for ye are not under the law, but under grace. What then? shall we sin, because we are not under the law, but under grace? God forbid.  Know ye not, that to whomsoever ye give yourselves as servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey, whether it be of sin unto death, or of obedience unto righteousness? But God be thanked, that ye have been the servants of sin, but ye have obeyed from the heart unto the form of the doctrine, whereunto ye were delivered. Being then made free from sin, ye are made the servants of righteousness. I speak after the manner of man, because of the infirmity of your flesh: for as ye have given your own members servants to uncleanness and to iniquity, to commit iniquity, so now give your members servants unto righteousness in holiness. For when ye were the servants of sin, ye were freed from righteousness. What fruit had ye then in those things, whereof ye are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. But now, being freed from sin, and made servants unto God, ye have your fruit in holiness, and the end, everlasting life. For the wages of sin is death: but the gift of God is eternal life, through Jesus Christ our Lord. ~Romans 6


You know, some scriptures you study because you don't understand them. Some scriptures you take to heart. And then, there are some scriptures that pierce your heart so that the only word you can think for the longest time is, "wow".


He that taketh not his cross, and followeth not after me, is not worthy of me. He that will find his life, shall lose it. And he that loseth his life for my sake, shall find it. ~Matthew 10: 38-39


When you die, you lose absolutely everything. That is why we are to lose our life for the sake of the gospel. Lose your life, for God's sake!


When I get to heaven, there will be many things in my life that God will not be pleased with. There will be one thing he is pleased with, and that is that his son Jesus the Christ lives in me, and that through Christ I am dead to the law, dead to sin. I wish I could say, I will sin no more. I know I will fail, I know I will fall, I know I will sin again. But I am dead to sin.

My suicide to sin is Christ, and Christ living in me I can say, "Behold I choose to die to myself, to die to my sins, to die to the world, and I am alive with Christ forevermore!"

All of the sinful pleasures and temptations of this world are fleeting, they're lies. Lies that seperate us from Christ. That's what I mean by a cruel world...your sins will stab you in the back. That is why we must give up everything in this world. Everything. All of it. Out the window, kaput. Gone.

The wages of sin is death. So you can live for sin, and then die and be forever lost. Or you can die to sin, and live for Christ. Our Lord has said that he who would save his life, must lose it.

We have to lay down our lives for Christ, I have to lay down my life for Christ. I must die in service to him.

Christ needs to be the center, 100% of our focus as Christians. I want him to be 100% of mine.




“So when the devil throws your sins in your face and declares that you deserve death and hell, tell him this: "I admit that I deserve death and hell, what of it? For I know One who suffered and made satisfaction on my behalf. His name is Jesus Christ, Son of God, and where He is there I shall be also! ~Martin Luther